Dear Ex-boyfriend from High School,

I am sorry for how things ended between us. It was abrupt and unplanned. I didn’t mean to hurt you as I did, you deserved a better ending–you deserved a better girlfriend. I know in my heart that I loved you, but we belonged as friends. After a year and a half, you still treated me like a princess every day, and I can’t tell you how thankful I am. I held onto the hope that we could make it work for too long. After our third big fight about the same goddamn issue I should’ve ended things–it was wrong to continue the lie. 

I don’t, however, appreciate how you treated me in our final weeks. You acted as though I was a slut who would throw herself at the first 10 frat boys I met at college–that if I enjoyed myself too much I would forget about you. After a year you showed that you had no trust in me. I had been loyal to you and us since the day we met, and those fights were simply a smack in the face.  

I hope there comes a day when you stop asking people what I’ve said about you. I hope there comes a day when I’m not the villain in your story. I hope there comes a day when we can be friends again. I don’t think of you as a terrible part of my life, and I want you to recognize that at the peak of it we were unbreakable. You gave me hope at the very moment I needed it and I’m grateful for you. 

Thank you for everything,

Hannah