Thinking without distraction can be a difficult task due to multiple reasons such as cell phone notifications, a knock on the door, or even your own mind wandering into oblivion. There is simply no telling how leaving yourself alone with your thoughts could truly go until you let yourself soley think. For me, I felt peace. Initially I decided to go out for a jog to be left alone with my thoughts then I realized the point was to be steady. I am always in the middle of the angst and the stress of school, but now I am steady.

Naturally I began to think about my future: where I would go off to vet-school, the status of my relationship with some friends, even the status of who I claimed myself to be. To think about the future is something I do without knowing it. I tend to overthink about the future which creates an anxious environment but as I found it without the influence of venting to someone through a phone, I calmed myself down when I realized it was all my imagination. Without my phone I wasn’t able to text my friends to reassure me or tell my mom I was feeling anxious, I had only the tools of my own conscious to help myself. 

During this realization, I temporarily forgot about my devices leading to their abandonment for another 45 minutes. I then began to think about just how addicted we truly are to such technology. It intrigues me how I can be so immersed in liking pictures of people online despite these individuals being unrecognizable to me otherwise unless on my feed. 

At the beginning of this experiment I felt disconnected, guilty even. I felt as though I was letting people down if I did not respond to their texts in under 5 minutes but as the time went by more and more did I feel freer and more connected than ever. I felt more connected to myself and felt I was giving myself the long lost opportunity of a chance at time not being taken up by technology. I allowed myself to open my thoughts to my own ideas without justification of others and it felt liberating to reconcile with my own being rather than the lifestyle and opinions of others render my thinking. So yes, thinking without distraction can be difficult but also so rewarding when given the chance to think truly.